Well if ever i have been ready to move in with nathan, these last couple of days have certainly made it more so. Im starting to get the feeling that im a bother to be in my own house. I feel like im burdening everybody being at the house and needing to ask for help with jayden. I dont feel like i want to study unless jayden is asleep bc i dont want to ask anyone to watch him. Im ready for all of us to be together and be a family. I love my boys so much, and i know nate misses jayden when we go, i can see it in his face, and it saddens me to have to leave. Ive thought about seeing if it would be okay if nathan came and stayed here for a little while to help out, but idk if he'd want to, or even what my parents would say to that. I think we both really thought we would have our own place by now, and i think things on my end are changing little by little. The thing that brings this comment on is tonight my mom told me she and my sister were going to go and run errands, and, out of curiosity, i asked where. She said shopping, and when i asked what mall my mom seemed disgusted when she told me concord mills. I got the impression to be that i was saying something wrong when all i did was ask. So needless to say im soooo ready to find a house with nathan and move out of here and in with him.
